Deep Breath In.....Exhale....ahhhhhh

I've calmed down. I've also come to the realization that I simply cannot please and accomodate everyone. I'm just going to roll with it and do whatever I think should be done. I might have felt differently if any of the parents were paying, but as of yet the fuckers have offered up nothing!! So it's my way or the highway. I am of course asking opinions from my friends, because unlike with my mother and MIL, I actually give a damn what they think.

I am hereby making a promise to myself to enjoy this experience. Think I can keep it?

Liar Liar My Pants Are On Fire

The stress just started. Apparently my mother disagrees with the date, the time and well, basically everything to do with what I've planned already. Oh and she thinks we should change the date to the weekend before, which would be fine if it wasn't for the fact that my in-laws are going out of town then.

Maybe I can't do this.

A wedding

So we had planned on taking a trip to Vegas in March, just before I (try to) get (and stay) pregnant. One last hurrah, so to speak. We had bounced around the idea of getting married while we were there, so the other night I sat down and started pricing out the trip. Now I am not one for big fancy weddings, but I want to wear a beautiful dress, have a semi-nice ceremony and not be married by a fat guy in an Elvis suit, know what I mean? So by the time we factor in airfare, hotel, decent wedding package cost, spending money, tux & dress rentals, and all the little miscellaneous stuff, we were looking at about $6,000. Coupled with the fact that my man's family would be absolutely pissed if we "eloped" (mine wouldn't care...lol) - we decided that we would do it here in town instead.

I don't like to drag things out and despite the way my life seems to go, I don't like complicated ordeals. I definitely don't like drama. So you can imagine that taking on planning a wedding is the last thing on this planet I would want to do. Not to mention all the other shit going on in my life. Ah well, what's one more thing on my plate right?

In one day, I have picked a venue for both the ceremony and reception, booked a DJ, chosen colors, style of bridesmaid dresses, picked bouquets, centrepieces and have a basic idea of everything else. Tomorrow I am going to try on dresses at a local sample sale and if that doesn't pan out, I am going to take a deep breath and buy a dress off eBay. Tuesday I meet with the catering co-ordinator to confirm the menu, but I've already looked at it and basically know what I want.

I have actually been less stressed in the last 2 days than I have in the last 2 months. Maybe this will be good for me, it will keep me occupied and keep my mind busy. And maybe people will be asking me about the wedding, instead of asking me about other stuff that I don't want to talk about.

I have exactly 8 weeks to plan my wedding. I know I can do this. I have single-handedly planned fundraising dinners/dances/silent auctions for 100+ people in the same amount of time, and they were far more complicated.

So far, no Bridezilla. Let's hope it stays that way!